May 9th, 2025
To my dear Kalabash community,
Ahoy and greetings! Summer is here in Cornwall and I bring news from the seaside town of Penzance where my sabbatical has come to its abundant and life-giving end. Tomorrow I fly back to San Diego for an action packed summer of handmade theatre camps and I just can’t wait!
This time away has been a gift for which I cannot put so easily into words. If I was to try and explain it to you, I could only say that I’ve been tending to the soil of my own heart and navigating the mysterious with as much courage as I can muster.
Nature has been a great teacher to me during this time. And I’ve tried my best to attend to its small miracles. The most astonishing of which must be the Spring.
These last few months I’ve felt like a child experiencing the world for the first time. I’ve seen things I’d only ever heard about. Like watching the wild geese fly overhead and the endless spring flowers that seem to have appeared overnight. I can proudly say I now know the beauty of primroses and bluebells and the taste of wild garlic and the bright fields of daffodils where I wandered lonely as a cloud. And the wonderful realization that all of these beautiful blooms will never truly be gone from the world. Like the Lilly of the Valley that offers her sweetness for such a short time before returning back to the dark soil again. So too will she return next Spring with her white little bells ringing out as if to say Eternity!
The earth is full of little wonders to remind us that time is not a line from beginning to end. Time is a circle. A circle where life and death are lovers in the ever turning of the seasons.
And the birds. Oh the birds. How many nights I’ve slept with the windows open listening to the dawn chorus. The triumph of seeing the first swallow that arrived from its long and dangerous journey to build its nest. The robin in the stone wall, the wren in the forge, the cuckoo in the quoit, the jackdaws in the church tower and the blackbirds in the sycamore tree. All their beaks are now full of grass and wool and little pieces of us. And what news from the fields? There are foals and calves and baby lambs all dancing on the grassy hills.
I’m reminded of Mary Oliver’s poem the “The Messenger” which hangs in our little Kalabash kitchen. The last lines read:
Let me keep my mind on what matters, which is my work, which is mostly standing still and learning to be astonished. The phoebe, the delphinium. The sheep in the pasture, and the pasture. Which is mostly rejoicing, since all the ingredients are here,
which is gratitude, to be given a mind and a heart and these body-clothes, a mouth with which to give shouts of joy to the moth and the wren, to the sleepy dug-up clam, telling them all, over and over, how it is that we live forever.
And so, as we approach our 10 year anniversary I am thinking about all the ingredients that are already here and I am rejoicing.
It seems only yesterday and also a lifetime ago that we were celebrating our grand opening with balloons and drums and music and dreams. And here we are again at the turning of a new season and the beginning of a new adventure. As the watchdog from The Phantom Tollbooth says “Time is a gift, given to you, given to give you the time you need, the time you need to have the time of your life.”
It certainly has been the time of my life sailing this beautiful ship we call Kalabash. And I look forward to seeing this beautiful house of music and art and stories live on for another ten years and more.
Like the starlings that dance their graceful shapes across the sky. So too shall we fly into this new decade together with a song of thanks on our hearts.
Yours faithfully,
Natasha